LOS ANGELES 鈥� In a wide-ranging interview aired Sunday, Harry and Meghan described painful palace discussions about the
The interview with Oprah Winfrey was the couple鈥檚 first since they stepped down from royal duties and the two-hour special included numerous revelations likely to reverberate on both sides of the Atlantic.
Harry told Winfrey that he felt trapped by royal life and was surprised that he was cut off financially and lost his security last year. He also said he felt his family did not support Meghan, who acknowledged her naivete about royal life before marrying Harry, as she endured tabloid attacks and false stories.
Meghan, who is biracial, described that when she was first pregnant with son Archie, there were 鈥渃oncerns and conversations about how dark his skin might be when he鈥檚 born.鈥� The statement led Winfrey to incredulously ask 鈥淲hat?鈥�
While Winfrey sat in silence, Meghan said she struggled to understand why there were concerns within the royal family about her son鈥檚 skin
Meghan, the actor formerly known as Meghan Markle who starred in the TV drama 鈥淪uits,鈥� said she grew concerned about her son not having a royal title because it meant he wouldn鈥檛 be provided security.
Meghan said processing everything during her pregnancy was 鈥渧ery hard.鈥� More than the 鈥減rince鈥� title, she felt the most troubled over her son鈥檚 safety and protection.
鈥淗e needs to be safe,鈥� a teary-eyed Meghan recalled. 鈥淲e鈥檙e not saying don鈥檛 make him a prince or princess, whatever it鈥檚 going to be. But if you鈥檙e saying the title is going to affect their protection, we haven鈥檛 created this monster machine around us in terms of click bait and tabloid fodder. You鈥檝e allowed that to happen, which means our son needs to be safe.鈥�
The interview was broadcast in the United States a full day before it will air in Britain. The revelations aren鈥檛 over: Winfrey teased unaired bits of the interview would be shown Monday morning on CBS.
In a rare positive moment in the interview, Harry and Meghan revealed their second would be a girl. The interview opened with Winfrey gushing over Meghan鈥檚 pregnancy and lamenting that COVID-19 protocols kept them from hugging.
Winfrey at various points in the interview ran through headlines about Meghan and at one point asked about the mental health impact. Meghan responded that she experienced suicidal thoughts and had sought help through the palace鈥檚 human resources department, but was told there was nothing they could do.
鈥淚 was really ashamed to say it at the time and a shame to have to admit it to Harry, especially because I know how much loss he suffered,鈥� she said. 鈥淏ut I knew that if I didn鈥檛 say it that I would do it. And I just didn鈥檛, I just didn鈥檛 want to be alive anymore.鈥�
Harry, too, said there are lasting impacts about Meghan鈥檚 treatment and his relationship with his family.
鈥淭here is a lot to work through there,鈥� Harry said about his relationship with his father. 鈥淚 feel really let down. He鈥檚 been through something similar. He knows what pain feels like. And Archie is his grandson. I will always love him, but there is a lot of hurt that has happened.鈥�
Harry said the royal family cut him off financially at the start of 2020 after announcing plans to step back from his roles. But he was able to afford security for his family because of the money his mother, Princess Diana, left behind.
In response to a question from Winfrey, Harry said he wouldn鈥檛 have left royal life if not for his wife. He said their relationship revealed the strictures of royal life.
鈥淚 wouldn鈥檛 have been able to, because I myself was trapped,鈥� Harry said. 鈥淚 didn鈥檛 see a way out.
鈥淚 was trapped, but I didn鈥檛 know I was trapped,鈥� Harry said, before adding, 鈥淢y father and my brother, they are trapped.鈥�
Harry acknowledged that he does not have a close relationship presently with his brother William, who is heir to the throne after their father, Prince Charles.
Harry disputed
鈥淚鈥檝e never blindsided my grandmother,鈥� he said. 鈥淚 have too much respect for her.鈥�
Meghan, too, was complimentary toward the queen, despite saying at one point she realized some in the palace were willing to lie to 鈥減rotect other members of the family.鈥�
鈥淭he queen has always been wonderful to me,鈥� Meghan said.
Sunday's interview special opened with Meghan describing how na茂ve she was about the ground rules of royal life before she married her husband, Harry, nearly three years ago. 鈥淚 didn鈥檛 fully understand what the job was,鈥� she said. She also noted that she did not know how to curtsy before meeting Queen Elizabeth II for the first time, and didn't realize it would be necessary.
鈥淚 will say I went into it naively because I didn鈥檛 grow up knowing much about the royal family,鈥� Meghan said. 鈥淚t wasn鈥檛 something that was part of conversation at home. It wasn鈥檛 something that we followed.鈥�
Meghan said she and Harry were aligned during their courtship because of their 鈥渃ause-driven鈥� work. But she did not fully comprehend the pressure of being linked to the prestigious royal family.
鈥淭here was no way to understand what the day-to-day was going to be like,鈥� she said. 鈥淎nd it鈥檚 so different because I didn鈥檛 romanticize any element of it.鈥�
The couple married at Windsor Castle in May 2018, and their son, Archie, was born a year later. Harry and Meghan鈥檚 departure from royal duties began in March 2020 over what they described as the intrusions and racist attitudes of the British media toward the duchess.
At the top of the interview, Winfrey said no topic was off limits and that Meghan and Harry were not being paid for the special.
In Britain, the interview is seen as poorly timed. It will air while Harry鈥檚 99-year-old grandfather Prince Philip remains hospitalized in London after undergoing a heart procedure.
It is unclear what public reaction, if any, the queen and other royal family members will have to Sunday鈥檚 interview. The U.K.'s Sunday Times newspaper, citing an anonymous source, reported that the queen would not watch it.
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Kelvin Chan in London contributed to this report.
Jonathan Landrum Jr., The Associated Press
